Finding confidence amongst the most beautiful women in the world
Confidence is something I think about a lot. Probably way too much. I know right away when other people have it and I am envious in comparison that I don’t. My default reaction to another woman’s fearless aura is to wish I was more like her. It took me almost four years in college to not get nervous or overthink speaking up in class even when I knew I had the right answer. I like to think that I am more sure of myself now, but still I find I have to pump myself up by blasting my Lady Power playlist before a meeting or event or even walking to class in the morning. I often psych myself out by internally saying that I am unprepared for a situation and everyone else around me instinctively knows what to do, how to act, and what to say.
Of course, this thought that everyone is in on some confidence secret that I don’t have isn’t true. In my mind I know this. I tell myself this before starting a new job or experience and I still get nervous. I’ve had conversations with countless friends and mentors that prove to me everyone is shaky in their confidence. Everyone views themselves as out of place at one point or another.